Six Days to Go!

I assumed that this week would go by quickly because I have a lot to do.  I assumed incorrectly.

I've been working on a few projects, some of them time sensitive, and that tends to make time speed up.  Yet nothing can throw off your internal clock like waiting for a momentous event.  Last night I watched a movie, then got restless and turned it off.  I surfed the internet for a while, watched more television, more internet, etc.  I wanted to sleep in but I was wide awake bright and early this morning.  I did some office work and figured it would be close to noon by then.  No such luck.  I took a shower.  I put away Christmas decor.  At lunch time I decided to watch some more television as a distraction, but if anything it just made me more anxious.  When hubby got home from work, I cooked dinner and even treated myself to some ice cream.  (Sugar can't hurt, right?)  Then back to baby's room I went, reorganizing.  I've sterilized bottles, repacked (probably no less than ten times) and almost completely redesigned her clothing storage.  I received a jewelry box for Christmas so I spent time on that.  Back to baby's room.  I wrote messages in many of her books so she knows who sent what.  I even read a few of her books to one of her ultrasound pictures.  I know.  It seems silly.  But right now, it's my way of connecting to her.  I feel that God is getting the messages across.

It's 10pm now and I'm going to watch some more television and hopefully fall asleep earlier than I did last night.  Tomorrow is New Year's eve.  Five whole days from our daughter's arrival.  Hubby is beyond anxious.  He is a nervous wreck.  We both are.  We are trying to stay busy.  I'm surprised he can get anything done at the office.  It's just so overwhelming. 

When we began our adoption journey I told everyone that I would write a book about the experience once our child was home.  I'm more determined than ever to do that.  So many things we have learned.  So much more to learn in the future.

Monday seems light years away, but remind me of that Sunday night.  I guarantee we'll be WIDE AWAKE!