Late last night we heard from our agency. Our birth mother is meeting with another family (one she had originally planned on) and depending on how that goes, she may then meet with us. We've always known this was a possibility, and honestly the news didn't affect me like some might suspect. At first I felt very sad and disenchanted. But that feeling didn't last for long. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that I actually want her to pursue this other family first.
I don't want anyone to place their child into our hands and lives without being absolutely sure that it's what they want. That it's what their heart calls for. I want them to know, as much as they ever can, that we are the perfect family for their baby. So the way I see it...if this baby is intended for us (and us for them) it will happen. And if this child is in fact suited for another family, I have no doubts ours will soon be here as well. I think finally realizing that our profile book has been viewed, and favorably so, has really affected my confidence in great ways. I know we will be a family. I believe it now more than ever.
Truthfully, we could still be the family she chooses. And if so, we will welcome the news! But if not, our child is just around the corner.
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