Our agency is pretty amazing. I had a conversation with them this morning about meeting our BM this past week. We work hand in hand with the owner of our agency and she has been extremely supportive and communicative. She wanted our input as to how things went, how things are progressing and what we hope for the months ahead.
I tried to explain the multitude of emotions we've gone through. It's hard, to say the least. Excited but scared. Anxious but worried. Concerned but joyful. It's almost a numbing sensation. You don't know which way to go or how exactly to feel. We're definitely thrilled but we also want to remain grounded and not get overly attached to our BM. Not because we fear her rejection, but because we think we need to maintain a healthy amount of distance. It would be just as detrimental to her if we became very close. It seems that, especially at this stage, it would only complicate her emotions.
We are thankful for the outpouring of encouragement we have received. It never ends! It gives us strength. There is no potentiality that we have not considered. All we choose to focus on is the joy of bringing our child home forever.
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