It's been months since I've blogged, and honestly with good reason. Our daughter is our absolute priority. In the days since we first brought her home, she has changed our life in every conceivable way. Lately I find myself holding her tighter than ever...it's as though I'm going through a new surge of "She's really ours!" It's hard to describe.
She will be 4 months old in a few days. Watching her grow is an amazing experience. It's like every day you have a moment where you stare wide eyed, wondering what new ability she will master. There is never a dull moment. She grew from a moderately fussy newborn who afforded us two hours of sleep at a time, to a curious and playful infant that sleeps (thank you God) for 8 hour stretches.
She sucks her thumb now. She rolls over, tentatively, but still she doesn't give up. Balls, rattles and other toys hold her interest while videos really capture her attention. She coos, she smiles incessantly and best of all..she now laughs.
I think about me this time last year. I think about all the hopes I held so close inside. At this point we were only two weeks into the adoption process. I wondered if we would be approved by the agency, if we would pass the home study, if we would wait on some list for years and years as the calendar mercilessly flipped from month to month. I want to whisper to that "me" that not only would everything work out beautifully, but that it would be much faster than we ever could have anticipated. To this day people are shocked when we tell them we waited 2 months. Some wait years. Some never get that phone call. The enormity of this is never lost on me. Maybe it's because I was one of those people for a very long time. And then my husband and I were one of those couples. Until finally one day we gave it up to God and decided to see what adoption could bring. How could we ever have hoped for someone so magical, so beautiful and so amazing? Not in our wildest dreams.
God bless all those who are waiting for their call and who are making the decision to place their child. Both of you are about to change lives forever.
